Showing posts with label Happy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Happy. Show all posts

Monday, March 14, 2005

3 Months

I haven’t really gone into any in depth here in along time. I really don't have anything to go in depth about. I'm such a shallow person. And another reason I don't have anything to go in depth about is I've been sorta sad lately. Actually more blah. I'm a really boring person. I don't do anything anymore. I go to school, go to practice go home and wait for Steve to call. Is that boring or what. I haven't done anything in forever. I haven't been to the mall since December. That makes me sad. I haven't even been to Wal-Mart since before Christmas. Man am I lame. I haven't had any fun with myself or my family in a long time. I haven't gone out with them in forever. I haven't been out at all. Makes me sad.

Oh and I thought I was going to get that pretty prom dress. My dad was going to buy it for me this weekend, but instead, I chose to buy myself new softball equipment instead. That's lame. I decided to spend 100 bucks on softball crap and go out in a few weeks to the mall and buy a dress that's not so spectacular. :( Makes me sad, but I can't help being cheap like that. 100 for softball stuff, 150 for dress. or 0 softball stuff and 300 on dress. I really need new softball crap, I don't need a dress. I guess it will all work out, hopefully.


I am so tired!!!!

Steve stayed with me Saturday night. We stayed up till 2 watching Saw. That movie was sort of freaky. The lights were on, so it wasn't that bad.
I had a great time with Steve this weekend, it was wonderful. ...I miss my Steve...wah!!! Anyways, We woke at 7 on Sunday. Yea, 7. how stupid. Anyways, I crawled on the couch with him. he he. Anyways, we had to take him home at noon. On the way there, I fell Asleep on Steve and drooled all over his coat. aww... Anyways, after I dropped Steve off, I feel asleep and slept until 7:30 last night, then I went to my mom's and went back to sleep. I was so tired. He wore me out. Funny thing is he went home and slept too. lol. Anyways, I'm still tired.

Tuesday, January 4, 2005

New Year, New Me?

My new Anniversay - January 3rd, 2004!!!



Okays. I hate school. Period.

I hate being here. I
d much rather be home, talking on the phone to Stephen, but I am stuck here. Actually If I didn't go to school I'd figure someway to go to his place or him to mine. sort of miss him. sort of. Wow.

This is really strange for me. I haven't had a boyfriend in like 3 years and I'm excited and sort of scared all at the same time. My family is so happy that Kimi is finally gone, and I'm excited that I have Steve. SO excited. It's like I go to sleep thinking of him, partly because It's 2 am and we just got off the phone and partly because I am so FUCKING HAPPY! And Then I wake up and I remember what we were talking about and I smile. I actually smile. I'm such a romantic. lol.

It's really sad too. For some reason I can’t stop thinking about Kimi, about how I burnt everything she every gave, including the stuffed animals. I did that yesterday, btw. Awful smell and black smoke. And It's sad to think that we can't at least be friends, but when I think about it, I don't want to be friends. We aren't on talking terms. I'm sort of lonely, but it's over with her PERMANETLY. SHE pisses me off and I just want to beat her fucking. It's like she's stealing my friends. Okay, my back up plan at lunch has always been sit with Chad or Beth and heather, but now...Beth and heather have 2nd lunch and Kimi took up with Chad...And now, I don't guess I am even going to eat. Well, I will. I won't do that to myself over some stupid dyke. FUCK THIS SHIT. everyone is tired of hearing about her so FUCK her and all this BULLSHIT!


so...back to thinking happy naughty thoughts about Sunday...




















can't wait until Sunday...