New Year, New Me?
My new Anniversay - January 3rd, 2004!!!
I hate being here. I
d much rather be home, talking on the phone to Stephen, but I am stuck here. Actually If I didn't go to school I'd figure someway to go to his place or him to mine. sort of miss him. sort of. Wow.
This is really strange for me. I haven't had a boyfriend in like 3 years and I'm excited and sort of scared all at the same time. My family is so happy that Kimi is finally gone, and I'm excited that I have Steve. SO excited. It's like I go to sleep thinking of him, partly because It's 2 am and we just got off the phone and partly because I am so FUCKING HAPPY! And Then I wake up and I remember what we were talking about and I smile. I actually smile. I'm such a romantic. lol.
It's really sad too. For some reason I can’t stop thinking about Kimi, about how I burnt everything she every gave, including the stuffed animals. I did that yesterday, btw. Awful smell and black smoke. And It's sad to think that we can't at least be friends, but when I think about it, I don't want to be friends. We aren't on talking terms. I'm sort of lonely, but it's over with her PERMANETLY. SHE pisses me off and I just want to beat her fucking. It's like she's stealing my friends. Okay, my back up plan at lunch has always been sit with
so...back to thinking happy naughty thoughts about Sunday...
can't wait until Sunday...